Sometimes Idk whether I'm really busy or what. I feel that I have a lot of things to do, but yet, I don't wanna do it. I really wanna jog every night but then I really cannot manage my time well. I have yet to buy my dye, buy my file, buy my books, bags, shoes, buy everyone's present. What the shit man.

I really need time. I'm not saying the time that everyone has now, not the free time. But the correct time, the unlimited time for me to do all these things properly. I don't wanna time myself every single time. Eg, 40minutes to buy file from daiso, then go library return books, 10mins, then take bus home, 15mins, must reach home by 7pm.. etcetc.

Don't you think it's a lil' bit too exaggerating? Timing and planning everything to fit every little second in my schedule. Yeah now I really have lots of free time, but I don't think it's the correct time to buy everyone's present? How to expect me going orchard and wandering around Singapore to look for a suitable present after using so much energy in school. Even weekends, I don't have the mood to go shopping. I really lost and forgot the taste of holidays. Now it's all about school school study study. What I want now is just to go school, study, writing, reading, or maybe some sports at night. That will do.

I really don't wish to get this and that from different places and then do this and that. And then worried that I may overeat all my meals, or wasting too much time on this and that. I'm getting more and more particular about every little single things.

Or perhaps I just wanna stay at home and all the things I need will automatically come to me.

I needa focus.

HANI!!! NEED YOUR HELP wor!!! :(