I seriously screw up everything. I felt screwed up. I screwed everything because I feel screwed up. But the more I screwed the more I can't stop because I'm really screwed up.
IM NOT KIDDING.
Since the school started, what I really want is just study and study. But obviously lifes always get distracted. However it's just you and yourself to depend whether this distraction can be good or bad, it's just the way of how you going to plan it - between studies and 'distractions'.
To me, like everyone else I suppose, hate to decide on something. Apparently for the past few years, almost all of my activities are planned myself. Ex-6h gathering... Oyasumi... Cny celebrations, etc etc. At that time, I already feel fed up for planning, because some people always don't co-operate, and some other cannot make their mindset, or keep disagree with certain stuffs.
I don't know why I'm the one who is always planning, it's not like I love to plan?
Sodesu neh... this year, which is my most important year- 'O' level... I really don't want to waste my brain cells for thinking and preparing so many other things... So maybe that's why I had been giving my irritating to my friends when they ask me this and that... Although it's really unnecessary sometimes. Sigh, whatever it is... I'll try to be like the past. Even myself hate the sharon now. Because of living more than 16years already, I'm getting more tired for living...
So fuck you a lot, you're the one who changed me to another Sharon.
For making me pinching my tummy every when and then.
For making me plan all my activities and get upset if I never followed.
For making me to be what I don't wanna be. For making me learn again despite I already gave up.
But now I don't do all this for you. I do this for myself.
But I just hate you still.
